Lately, I’ve had “Satisfied” from Hamilton stuck in my head. Most of it is Renée Elise Goldsberry’s magical voice but certain refrains stick in my head.
With those musical bits floating and my clutter around me, I realized I am helpless because I’m never satisfied and I realized three fundamental truths at the same time.
So, call up the chorus–
Number 1 ~ Helpless
I have an addiction to boredom.
It’s rather crazy to think in these modern times with everything I have at my disposal that I would be bored.
But I am, and I alleviate that boredom by going online. It’s not even to shopping sites themselves. Go on social media, get ads. In a group? See new products others are using. Get FOMO (Fear Of Missing Out) sensations. Become pulled by the promise of objects.
Begin promising myself “After this one” or “Reward” or “Treat Yourself” or “It’s limited so it’ll vanish”
The elation of a new item
The boredom that settles after receiving it
Oh, that new pen doesn’t make my novel magically write itself? You don’t say!
Number Two ~ I’m never satisfied
I can understand Angelica and Hamilton’s characters on a spiritual level with this. I’m never satisfied. Does it work in my favor? Sometimes. It drives me to do better. It also drives me to depression when things go wrong. It also keeps me from realizing the finality of things. (Do you want to see my novel folder of dissatisfaction?)
It keeps me buying new things.
Craving new things.
New experiences, new places, new objects, new everything! What I have is not good enough, I need new~
If I buy this ~thing~ obviously, I will be better organized, right? You can’t be organized without things to organize it!
Number Three ~ The Three Fundamental Truths of Organized People
Is it cheating to have three things nestled in number three? Perhaps. Let’s just file that under Helpless for now.
- Organized people don’t have a lot of ahem s h * t.
- Having a lot of s h * t leads to disorganization and dissatisfaction.
- The less s h * t you have, the less s h * t you have to deal with.
Ah, I feel so nice that I have figured out this thing that keeps me from doing the thing.
I should reward myself.
HAAAHA just joking
Until I get to Daiso
Look, I promise only to buy five things. FIVE things. Not five hundred. Just five…. only five….
Ah, wait, I forgot the remix:
4. It is difficult to go minimalistic if you live with someone who does not want to go minimalistic.
It is rather disheartening to clear out space and then have another person move their s h * t into that space because it is now cleared.
But convincing someone to adapt a minimalistic lifestyle is going to need another Hamilton song.